15 Weeks One Day!

15 Weeks One Day!

WOW!!!! I am so glad that the first trimester is over!!!!  Being nauseated all the time is terrible.  I would tell Dave that he should imagine having the stomach flu for weeks and weeks on end.  I am also happy to say that on most days I have my energy back.  My latest ailment is headaches, and I continue to get bloated quite often but that pails in comparison to how I felt in the first trimester.  

We are constantly working on our house and getting things fixed up the way we have always wanted them to be.  Dave has a long list of things he wants done and I joke that this is his way of nesting.  I on the other hand I have none of those feelings and often wonder if I am really cut out for this motherhood thing.  I am in it now with no choice, but often find myself worrying weather or not I will be a good mother.  I know people say this is normal and it will all work out fine, but I worry I might be different.  The main reasons I worry is that I am a slob, and don't like to cook, clean or do any other wifely, motherly duties.  I don't even take great care of my dog and I had countless fish and even a lizard die in my care as kid just because I didn't feel like giving him water everyday.  All joking aside, I guess we will just have to wait and see and I hope that I can rise to the occasion. 

I finally started to buy things for the baby.  I had been putting this off for some reason.  I don't know if it scared me because it made it so real or if it was a coping mechanism in case I lost the pregnancy.  So far I have bought a crib and a maternity pillow.  I have yet to buy any maternity clothing and am not sure when I will.  I am so cheap that I don't like to spend money on clothing anyway that the the thought of buying something just for a few months of use seams silly.  Luckily it is summer and I am still able to fit into all my regular clothes.  

I am just now starting to show.  I guess I have had a little baby bump for awhile but I didn't count it because to me I just looked like I needed to drop a few pounds.  Disclaimer: (THIS IS GOING TO SOUND TERRIBLE) I would often look at other women who were not pregnant and say heck they look more pregnant than I do so I am not counting my bump as a bump yet.  This week is different though, I definitely look a little pregnant and find myself holding my stomach all the time.  I don't mean to do it, it just happens.  

I have decided to keep track weekly of the things most people ask me about.

Weight: 111 (no change from pre-pregnancy --> not sure how this is possible but it is what the scale says)      -Although I did loose 4 pounds in the first trimester.

Clothing: Still wearing all my normal clothes.

Cravings: none (besides cantaloupe in the first trimester I really have not had any cravings)

Food aversions: still don't want anything to do with a hamburger and nothing sweet!

Overall: I feel pretty good, a little tired and moody at times but pretty good.  I am anxiously awaiting feeling the baby move.  

Things I hate about being pregnant:  Everyone telling me what I can and can't do.  I guess I am a bad pregnant person because I still eat lunch meant, and sushi, and soft cheeses.  For goodness sake we don't live in a third world country and I am selective about it.  Also everyone all the sudden feels like it is perfectly acceptable to comment on your size/shape/weight.  What is this all about!!  No, I don't want the hear, "you must feel better you can tell you have put some weight on," or "your looking a little chunky what are you eating."  

I still haven't taken a pregnancy picture but I will today, so look for it a bit later!!